It was a shocking afternoon. Late in the long day shift, we had a code. He was fine 5 minutes before when I left him, then suddenly they were calling a code. 30 minutes of resuscitation and 8 doses of epinephrine, 1 dose of sodium bicarbonate, never needed a shock. It was quick. I probably cracked a rib or the sternum when I started. 30 minutes in and we had ROSC, it was a quick transfer to ICU. Ten minutes or so, another code downstairs. Refractory cardiac arrest.

I’m sorry for the family you left behind to grieve. But I pray that they will find peace and that you will too. Farewell and may God go with you.

To my colleagues, thank you for your help and support.


Four names I go by

 1. Iris

 2. Kate

 3. Iris Kate

 4. Eeris
 Four things I hate

 1. Cockroaches

 2. Flying cockroaches

 3. Spiders

 4. Feeling helpless
 Four things I love to watch

 1. Anime

 2. Ghibli movies

 3. Korean rom-coms

 4. The sky/the horizon
 Four places I have been

 1. Palawan

 2. Cebu

 3. Hong Kong

 4. Singapore
 Four things I love to eat

 1. Pizza

 2. Tostitos (with a hint of lime)

 3. Carbonara

 4. Sinigang na baboy (kind of like a hot and sour soup with pork instead of seafood)
 Four favorite drinks (not water)

 1. Matcha green tea latte

 2. Mocha

 3. Coffee

 4. Earl grey tea
 Four things I am looking forward to:

 1. Not being financially burdened

 2. The time I can actually afford to go on an adventure without incurring debts

 3. Finally finding my forever person (i think i prefer the term always instead of forever)

 4. Being a recognized author (poet, novelist, or fanfiction writer)


Sitting in a coffee shop, enjoying my breakfast for dinner, I hear songs I love. Listening to old school songs while enjoying a hearty meal takes me back to my childhood. Sure we don’t listen to music while having meals but we do listen to songs of my parents youth during roadtrips or even while driving over to church and the mall. Songs from Spandau Ballet, Rod Stewart, Tears for Fears, and more… These masterpieces take me back to rainy days enjoying the suspension of classes while our grandmother served her wonderful champorado (chocolate rice porridge) and sopas (creamy chicken soup with macaroni noodles).

Of course nostalgia paints memories with a filter. Those rainy days were storms and more often than not, we’d be out of electrcity with only candle light guiding us. But those memories of my childhood, unperfect as they may seem, are my treasures. They help me through this hard phase of life called adulthood. Precious moments I wish to relive and always remember.

God, it’s so hard to be responsible. Most  of the time I find myself wishing that we were rich and I would not need to struggle with finances. Other times, I find myself longing for the innocence of childhood, carefree and happy-go-lucky. 

Good food and great music with the family, with all our ups and downs, are my most treasured memories.



27 Things I Still Have Absolutely No Clue About At 27 | Thought Catalog

Very relatable. Hahaha! Oh, 27th year… Damn it, almost near my 30s and I still don’t feel like a complete adult.

23. How to be one of those people who saves money. I don’t NEED to buy lipsticks or sweatshirts that promote my love of avocado toast…but I do. I don’t have to buy Vans or spend the money that I spend…but I do. It’s a problem. And one that I should probably stop avoiding.


La La Land

Emma Stone and Ryan Gosling
Pursuing dreams. Heartaches. What ifs and what could have beens. Following one path over another and living with the choices we make.

This movie has certainly reminded me that no matter what choice we make, we live through it and make the most out of it. This isn’t a review, it’s a reflection. Life can go one way and it can also go the other way. Whatever happens, life is what we make it. We all succeed in one way or another, our success comes from our choices.


“Maybe it’s not about finding someone to love but letting go of all the ones you loved before. Maybe it’s about redefining love and what it means to you or maybe it’s about letting go of all the remains of your heartbreak so you can love with all your heart again. Maybe for now, your journey is about forgetting your exes and your past and focusing on moving on. Maybe the lesson is in completely moving on before finding someone else.”